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not particularly excited to have to go to a stupid choir festival next monday.
being at school at 4am is ridiculoussss. and driving like a million hours. on a bus. with people i don’t like. |:
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Aww Sad. I always had a blast on choir trips. Always ended up in the middle of a dog-pile on the bus…. Plus, those hours count as “community service” if you end up missing a lot of school. Choir trips saved my ass.
Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…
You give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like “maybe we should just be friends” or “how very perceptive” turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
